Saturday, January 23, 2010

Fighting a Losing Battle


With each passing day, with each passing moment, I feel more and more pain in my heart.....Do not know why, and have no idea for how long will it stay......
Today I tried writing something but rhymes failed to come out ....never felt so abysmal in my entire life....one phase comes pretty close....it was some 19 months back when I faced a much similar situation....People started showing their true colors....and it was I guess one more reality show that life showed me then....

I was always an arrogant man....ever since I was born....stubborn, cocky, who the hell cares kind.....made many more enemies than I made friends....and when I was low, the so called "friends" started showing their true colors......I never lost faith in those 61 days of my life....It was a lesson that I learned the hard way..... Walking in the summer sun perspiring with bag on my back traveling in second class saving every penny to survive.... Traveled more than 5 cities....in the search of my own nirvana....I knew about the destination....but there was no straight path...

In those days....I rarely smiled....walked to save bus fare....skipped lunch...carrying my arrogance in a folder that few ever saw....but I had my own stubborn ways to live life....no matter how tough they were....Then there was a streak of good luck that struck me....the 61 days ended....life was easy again....
But I always remembered what I underwent in the worst days of my life....
The only money I had was 9700 Rs with which I survived while traveling across the country....

Today I stand on the rerun of the same reality show.....The show host is life and the producer is god (with whom I have never been on good terms).....I guess this is again the time to pack my bag and walk....

My only wish is to walk this path of my life with my head held high....(you may think I am arrogant but that is my only wish)....

1 comment:

DreamCatcher said...

Totally with u dude...

there r few people who are as stubborn as u are.. and wld love to b ur friend all along..

hold on.. we are the warriors and would again to throne :)

all the best

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