Walking Alone

Its been a long time since I wrote anything meaningful or written anything at all. Life has changed a lot in 2010. It certainly has changed so much that I feel it has come a full circle. I find myself standing at the same place today where perhaps I was standing a few years ago. But I was younger then, I had dreams of what is held in the future, well today I know what was there in the future as it becomes my past. Well anyways few more years down the line, I will write again about what is in store for a next few years too…
Meanwhile this is something which mirrors my current emotions today…Maybe a few broken souls can empathize….



I was born in this world with closed eyes and marvelous dreams
When I opened my eyes I say pain, blood, tears and screams
As I walked on all fours around the plastered floor under the shades of the Neem
I saw how the world was, to me it was wonderful it seems

A hand pulled me up and I learnt to walk, slowly and carefully treading my path
I never knew that it was broken, dead ended sometimes, I just walked not caring about the aftermath
A loner always, a privileged one some said, I never knew what love and care was
Life began to move so fast, without any pause

The hand that guided my earlier smiled as I began to run
Running was something I enjoyed, something I felt was fun
As a loner it was my destiny to run fast, faster than anyone’s reach
But I was human, and humans are social they preach

As I ran, I met a few who ran alongside me
But as a steed my goal was the only thing I could see
I never knew that life is a journey and not a destination
I forgot who ran with me and the goal became my fascination
There were a few souls which I should have waited for taking a break in my marathon
Atleast I realize that today as I stand alone in an oblivion
My heart sometimes pounds for what I gained and what I lost
I yearn for the calm pine forest and the winter frost

Today as I stand alone, I feel the autumn leaves are falling around will the wind blowing them away
I realize what I gained and how much have I lost as I kept running all my way
Maybe loneliness is what I sowed, so that is what I shall reap
There is no sense today in feeling miserable or to weep

They say the soul never dies, but I defied them all today
My body still remains, but my soul did die away
I no more run today, just drag on like a lifeless corpse
In the life that is left, the only emotion today is remorse

I wish I could run backwards to the souls I met a while ago
Hold their hands and never let it go
I may not have won the race then running so fast
But then it wouldn’t have mattered even if I would have stood last